Friday, December 12, 2008

Am I Losing... Am I Lost?

I listened to Coldplay's song "Lost" today like twenty times after hearing it once in the car. First off I've had one of those days that's just, well lets face it...... The Worst. I got cheated on... that feels great. Awesome. I can truly relate to those who've been there now. Sorry for your pain. It blows. On top of that, my job sucks, and I also found out that i'm going to get a D in a class I thought I had a B in. So that's what 0 for 3 now? That song came on and I just cried. It's weird feeling like you're losing at everything. Like no matter what you do, it's never enough. You succeed at one thing only to fail at 5 others. Anyhow, the lyrics were such an awesome message as they just spoke to me so clearly. Am i really Lost just because i'm losing right now? If the answer is yes, if you think you don't know who you are anymore, then it's time to get help. You need to find out who you are. I've learned through a few bad days like this how strong I am inside, and EXACTLY who I am. That's an amazing feeling. At the end of the day, I still have hopes and dreams....and a stupid job, terrible grade, or cheating b***h aren't enough to take that away...